Starting the Journey Over

Ever have one of those moments that grabs hold of you and almost knocks the the wind right out.  I had a wake up call of sizable proportions this morning.  It was the good kind of wake up call.  There have been many things on my mind of late that I got confirmation of this morning.  When you get singled out in a crowd by a stranger, it can have quite the affect on you.  My heart has known for quite awhile what I am supposed to be doing, but my head has been a bit slow to catch up. I have been filled with a lot of doubt on what I know.  There was a dream placed in my heart a long time ago that I have not been living out because I have thought I'm not good enough.  Even though I believe in myself in most areas of my life, there are a couple I have not been doing so good at.  This morning, I was told to go over the top. I have been holding back, but that is something I can no longer do.  I need to push myself outside of my comfort zone to...

I had broken and found myself at the bottom.  It was here that I did some real deep thinking.  After all, I wasn't going anywhere too quickly.  I learned a very valuable lesson down there.  If you view yourself as broken, broken you will remain.  Everyone around me treated me like I was broken, many of them treating me like something was wrong with me.  It was hard for people to understand because they hadn't walked in my shoes, they hadn't experienced the pain and frustration and disappointment I felt when I looked at my life. I began to see myself as broken, and that's when I hit the bottom.  I saw myself through everyone else's eyes.  The more pity I saw, the more broken I became.  I started to believe what so many were projecting onto me and didn't realize that's what I was doing.  Here's the thing, you're only as broken as you allow yourself to be. It took someone very dear to me telling me to knock it off for me to snap out of ...

I got to thinking today.  There are so many people around me starting anew in different ways in their lives.  Some are starting new careers, going through a divorce, starting a new relationship or going back to school.  These can all be challenging and wonderful at the same time. Let's be honest there are some days you want to roar like a lion, but all you can do is whisper.  Your whole body hurts from the emotional roller coaster that can come with starting over in life.  These are the days you can only tiptoe instead of taking a leap.  It can feel like the wind has been knocked out of you, and you struggle to have a clear thought.  I know these days all too well as do many. It is on these tough days that you must connect, even surround yourself with your army.  Your army is the group of people who will love you through thick and thin.  The people who love you at your ugliest, maybe even love you more.  We need to lean on others to ...