What are you so afraid of?

What fears grip you as you try to fall asleep at night?  Do you wonder how you are going to pay a bill?  Are your kids on the top of your mind?  Are there problems in your relationship with your significant other?  Are you afraid that you are going to be alone?  Do you fear failing?  And when I ask about the fear of failing, I mean do you fear failing to the point that you are even afraid to try? 

Different fears grab onto each of us during different seasons of life.  I have had many sleepless nights over some of my fears.  The fear can be crippling.  You can feel the weight of it pressing you down and holding you there.  Just thinking about some of the fears I have had over the course of the last few years, I can feel that tightness creep in. 

One of the hardest things is to face our fears.  I have always had a fear of failure.  This fear has given me many nights of tossing and turning where I just can't shut my brain off.  Right now, I am terrified some days, but I know I have to conquer this fear.  I cannot allow it to keep me from pressing on or succeeding.  Sometimes it gets scariest when we are heading in the right direction.  I know what I am called to do, but that doesn't change the fact that it is tough and scary.  I need to be on point and step up my game in nearly every aspect of my life.

I am called to help others live their lives to the fullest.  To do that, I have to lead by example.  This means having all eyes on me and being scrutinized in all I do.  I need to make sure that people see I live what I preach.  I had a conversation with someone dear to me recently where they questioned the life I am living.  It was like getting stabbed.  My dreams were being put on trial, and that can cause a lot of self doubt.  They didn't understand that I live this way because it is what drives me.  The fear tried to settle into my gut, but this time I chose to stand and fight.  I fought for my why.  I didn't fight for them to agree with me on the choices I make or the life I live.  I fought for them to simply hear me and know. 

That conversation made me realize that sometimes I have been allowing others to speak into my life in negative ways.  I was hearing what they have been saying and letting it be part of my truth when in reality it is not my truth.  I have been so afraid of failing that I have let others cause me to doubt myself further instead of standing up strong and proud of all I have accomplished and am working to accomplish.  I may fall flat on my face, but I would rather try than never step up.  I am choosing to not let fear derail me.  I already know the worst that can happen so why not just go for it.

So, I ask you.  What are you so afraid of?  Are you going to let it stand in your way?  What choice will you make for your life?  Are you all in with me to go for your goals?

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